The Post I Can’t Write
Posted on September 14, 2018
In the nearly five years since I started this blog (this is post number 265), a small pile of drafts exists of posts that were never made public. Some of these were a little too controversial for the organizations I worked for at the time and others intense enough that I, and others, were afraid they might retraumatize some of our readers. The pile is a small one since I rarely shy away from controversy or intensity.
Since I struck out on my own and reformatted the blog, I felt I could dive more freely into controversy and until last week, did not add any new posts to the unpublished pile. The topic that broke this 60-week streak concerned an issue I felt I needed to address as someone who speaks on trauma and trauma-informed leadership. Though I wrote and rewrote the post, I could never find my voice through my rage and sadness.
The post concerned the recent report that more than 300 priests sexually molested over 1,000 children in Pennsylvania. My heart breaks for the victims. 1,000 children had to experience the horrors of sexual abuse by men who were supposed to represent the best of God’s love on earth. I’m sorry that the church I once called my spiritual home did this to you in such a horrible and systematic way. I’m sorry no one stopped the abuse. I’m sorry I can’t find the appropriate words to express my grief.